mini-breakdown

I'm in the midst of a mini nervous breakdown and i need to get it out there somewhere because my head may explode.  or implode.  you know, I'm not quite sure what's in there and holds it all together.

Don't get me wrong, I'm excited about Japan.  I think it will be fun.  I think it will be a great opportunity for us.  We'll get to travel, to try a different lifestyle and to just do something many people can't do.  But I just want to be there already.

Point Loma NTC did our medical screening and told me we were good to go.  What I did not realize is that they sent their screening results to Japan and Japan has the final say-so as to whether or not we will be going.  They told us they would have an answer on monday.  It's now wednesday and I was just told that we could possibly not find out until next monday what Japan thinks.  TMO is coming to pack us up 2 weeks from tomorrow.  This stresses me out.  Not knowing 'for sure' if we're going or not.  [Having been a milspouse for 4+ years now I realize nothing is ever a sure thing in the military, but I'm really struggling with it this time!]

Addy and K must be picking up on my stress because both of them are super clingy and whiny.  Both have been constantly underfoot and crying/screaming/whining for absolutely no reason.  This is adding to my stress because it means we are not having productive days at all.  It also drains my patience.

So, I'd really like to be in Japan already.  I'd like to have the organizing, packing, moving, goodbyes, paperwork, and chaos over with already.  I just need to take a deep breath and try to enjoy all those moments that don't revolve around anything move-related, which is so much easier said than done.